it has been almost 2 weeks since i blog. nobody misses this anyway...

i've done everything i need to do and i feel alittle better. school, choir, tuition and church filled up my life, made me busy and somehow made me stop looking for you in the crowd. i know you hate church... but every prayer i said with my heart is meant for you. i thank Lord for bringing you into me and never blame for taking you away but question him for you.

there's this guest speaker at the church last night and he spoke about relationships with people.

'being good is a choice while turning bad is a influence.', 'you do not determine the views people have on you, the people around you does.'

its quite a long talk, for about a hour and a half so i cant really remember much.

school is busy, so is choir... im so far apart again, like the day to PHS. was so angry although i tried, life was meant to be unfair. but i never expect this change where i dont feel the belonging to them. everything is wrong.

也许我只是自己骗自己，以为我还可以拥有你，最后才知道这只是个哄小孩的骗局。
也许。。。 我根本不是你的唯一， 你只是不想伤害我而已。

谢谢你的陷阱。。。

;i am afraid